Before And After :)

Before This

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts,
or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will
search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.

Now

Hard to breath

Weird to touch

Acting normal

Think too much

Trying hard

To figure out

Moving onward

Engulfed in doubt

Don't look back

Too much pain

And in fact

Nothing to gain

Filled with knots

Wasted time

A penny for my thoughts

I deserved a dime

Who's to say what's true

I never said I was right

Guess I never knew

It's not worth the fight

Thinking about before

Don't know who I was

Could have closed the door

And never been an "us"

Said you would stay

Promised you could

Chose to walk away

I knew you would

Everything was fine

Said we'd never part

Knew it was a line

But gave you my heart

I'll take the blame

I've always known

I played your game

You lost alone

I know you know

There's more to give

You were a stepping stone

I have a life to live

Hard to love

Weird to trust

Acting typical

Think it was lust